Awkward Tuesday...

Getting back onto my usual gym-work-work-surf Net-chat with Mus-sleep pattern again. Im so oblivious to anything exciting that goes around me that I don't have much to blog about everyday..guess Im jaded and nothing much makes me sit up nor be excited about...i havent been clubbing since BKK...im not so good at the alcohol anymore...went to gym today and it was awkward because Benny , my "sometimes hairdresser" told me that 'C' was there..aiyah...so awkward man...nothing to say anymore and its just stupid to carry on feeling like i should apologize..I still don't think I said enough to warrant such hard words.and he should know better that I'm not like that anymore..whatever lah....anyway, I avoided the floor like crazy..running on the 1st level machine..but I guess when you try to avoid the obvious, it just hits you when you aren't looking..after doing the usual stretches, I walked warily back to the shower room ..and then shit lor, had to bump face on with that one...wah lau...damn sian man! dunno what to say so i just mumbled something, cannot remember...shit shit shit lor...and then kena act all smiley-smiley ( can u imagine me trying to actually pretend!!?)..well...im sure he was telling himself the same..it was so bloody tense..didnt try to even go back and "chat"..there isnt much to say to people who put you down every chnace they get and shrug it off as a joke, only mah!!! it was like a bad smell that blew in..you have no choice but to take the waft then it goes away ( thank gawd!!)...hope it doesnt happen again tomorrow!!!